Don't Just Blame Fate (Part 2)

12 years ago, when I was in the first grade of high school, I had ever been english language course at LBPP LIA Cirebon in approximately 1 year. Because when I was in middle school, my national exam scores fell in english subject, so I could not enter to my favorite high school. And I realized that I was weak in terms of mastering a foreign language.

My fault was that I'm not serious in taking the english course, I didn't have a strong desire  to be able to master english and improve my weaknesses in term of mastery of english.

As time went on, until I went to college I didn't have the seriousness to mastering english, even though I was on one of the best state campuses in Indonesia.  Where in this campus environment, lots of people were already fluent in english, even lots of my friends that can go abroad to short course, join an international conference, or the other activities, with fluent in english as capital.

What I really regret is that in the past I have a passionate desire to continue to graduate school (S2) abroad with a scholarship. But the truth is, I only dreamed without followed by real action, one of which began to focus to mastering english, because this is one of the main requirement to be able to study abroad especially using scholarships.

After graduating S1 (bachelor degree), one by one my friends have already been accepted to S2 (master degree) abroad with scholarships, some work in multinational companies which generally require good english skills. Whereas I, like this, my english skills from 12 years ago are still the same as before, there were no significant changes. and I began to realize, I had too many dreams without real action. I fantasized too much without trying to achieve that success. And finally I began to lag far behind  because of my own mistakes. 

And in fact, mastery of languages especially english as an international language is important to facilitate all matters of world affairs both career, school, business, and other life especially in current era.

And I can't blame fate, the current condition is my past mistakes.

What I can do is to start  now to catch up with it, or not at all which will lead to me getting left behind so far and getting worse again.

January 18, 2019

(Trying to start everything again for a better life)